With the razor kissed wrists
this is my bright red scream
as I press down harder blood begins to surface
I convince myself “you don’t feel pain, forget it, it’s worth it“
You convince yourself that there is no pain
I try to forget
it’s just my sick little game
there’s white ones, red ones, fresh ones too
I’m ashamed of what I do
As time goes by they get harder to hide
more and more skin with scars on the outside
Hide them with long sleeved shirts, it covers them up but doesn’t take away the hurt
It hurts the same when nobody knows; it’s just the way it goes
Cut to feel alive, it’s something I know is real
It’s something I wish I could hide, something I didn’t have to feel
When things get too bad it’s first instinct to just cut away
Cut away, make some new scars to just get through the day
This time it got out of hand, cut too deep and can hardly stand
Losing way too much blood and I begin to fall
This will be my little secret, I won’t say anything at all
Razor Kissed Wrist
•October 24, 2008 • Leave a CommentWhatever She Says!!!!
•August 26, 2008 • Leave a CommentHow can you be so hot and treat me so cold?
How can I be dead inside and no one know?
How ocme I seem invisible yet you appear to glow?
How come I feel empty though blood continues to flow?
How can the scars remain yet never show?
How can I be homeless when there’s no place left to go?
How come you’re only high when I am low?
How come I keep writing but the pain never slows?
Memories
•July 6, 2008 • Leave a CommentThe time,when I met you
The time,we came close
That time,I still remember
That time had some flaws
Over the years that passed in between
Helping you,the growth of love
The seed that cupid once nourished
Steals the whiteness of the dove
Years has passed,changed are we
But so changed,we never knew
Miss the earlier good old days
And today,I really miss you
Times will change and so shall we
This silence will prevail
Even,if then you miss me
The memories broken by gale…………
I miss you.. oh i miss you..i’m gonna need you more n more each day..i miss you,more than words can say..more than words could ever say..
The Last Revelation
•June 6, 2008 • Leave a CommentThe happiness I seek is within me.
In my work.
In my passion for life.
And the ones who had faith in me in spite of everything.
Will You?????
•May 25, 2008 • 1 Comment Teach me to smile
I’ve forgotten the way
Teach me to speak
What can I say?
Show me your god
To whom I’ve never prayed
Be with me
No one else has stayed
Strengthen my heart
For it is tattered and frayed
I would learn to love
If you let me, if I may
And if I learn to live
How much must I pay?
Will you take my life?
And lay it on a silver tray
And if I take your hand
Will we be o.k?
Or will you fight
And keep me away
Will you teach me to love?
Or keep my feelings at bay
Should I be with you?
At night and in the day
Or should I do what you say
And stay so far away
Discarded Love
•May 21, 2008 • Leave a CommentBleak midwinter
And snow lies all around
My heart is cold and empty
And I long to walk on the hot sand
With the sun burning my body
And my love close at hand
Will you ever return?
Or will I always live in bleak midwinter
Send me word of where you are
Have you found a new love?
Have you moved on to someone new?
I am still in a frozen state
Stuck rigid where you left me
Unable to move on
One kiss would thaw my bones
One moment of bliss would unfreeze my toes
I would follow you to the ends of the earth
But my feet are frozen to the ground
And all around there is no sound
In this frozen wilderness
I will live forever
Suspended in time
A monument to discarded love
death deserved
•May 21, 2008 • 1 Commentwhat have you done to me?
a haze of agony as emotions bleed.
once we tasted bliss,
open and untainted,
but your desire died.
a painful vision of bitterness -
tears follow memory, follow darkness,
love left to die.
in a torrent of sorrow,
i hate you.
ESP sword guitar kills knights dead, plays a pleasant tune
•May 21, 2008 • 1 Comment
If you ever wanted to cut through a crowd of screaming fans all trying to plant their greasy little fingers on the precious talent that is you, ESP has the answer.
“Here is an absolutely awesome sword guitar from the ESP Custom Shop. It was custom made for the Alfee’s guitar player Takamizawa” reads the auction page for the Lordi-esque Sword Guitar. “The Alfee is one of the biggest rock acts in Japan and Takamizawa is well known for his Angel and other Gothic themed guitars.”
“It is a pro quality instrument that actually sounds AMAZING plugged and unplugged. Very loud and resonant unplugged. The action can be set anyway you want it and is currently super low. It is all hand carved etc. These start at around $12,000 or so new so offer accordingly.”
Hows this for service: The owner will even deliver it halfway across the world if the ticket costs less than 500 clams
Cats Arse Sharpener
•May 21, 2008 • 1 Comment
Erm…It’s a pencil sharpener, so when pencil is blunt just shaft behind the cat’s a** and when you start sharpening your pencil, the cat will make the meow…! sounds. It comes with a litter tray to hold your pencil shavings. You can get one of this Cats Arse Sharpener for $12.51.
I-Axe USB Guitar
•May 21, 2008 • Leave a Comment
Here’s a USB powered guitar, the I-Axe USB Guitar. Now you can play your guitar along to your computer’s tracks, and mix, edit and record your sessions with the software provided. You can even play guitar at the middle of the night without disturbing your neighbor as the I-Axe guitar comes with a headphone jack, just be sure headphone have a ¼” TRS Stereo Jack. It is MAC and Windows compatible and measures 97 x 33 x 4cm. You can pick up one of this I-Axe USB Guitar for $179.91.



